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[Nov. 20th, 2009|11:34 pm] |
Is it odd that Californication wants to make me be a writer for real?
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Here is a link to a new mix I just made!
Download it at ZShare
I made three mixes in the past couple of weeks, one should have rolled out for Halloween but didn't. This is kinda my Thanksgiving one that I'll post to facebitch next week.
Umm.. what songs are on this thing. Some of the usual suspects, the Persona 3 ending song, I hear a little Freddie Mercury in there, PERFUME. It's pretty fun I think. 50 minutes long, play it and tune out.
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Obligatory blog plug. Sorry this is short, I'm standing right now. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2009|11:36 pm] |
Wow, I'm on a weird nostalgia trip right now because of this website:
Kildonan Place
I haven't been to that mall in at least ten years. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2009|09:42 pm] |
Hey everyone:
Work has been rather decent; you know, since we formed one team and had A BOSS to tell us what to work on, it's been much smoother. Although, I just got a shitload of stuff dumped on me to pick up the slack for someone. :| I'm going to see what I can pawn off tomorrow, because I'm worried about meeting the timelines for MY stuff right now.
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On the writing front: For NaNoWriMo, I've started a really personal project that... probably nobody will ever get to read. Well, I'll let a few people check it out, but it's essentially all about me and the past ten years. I think I can actually write 50,000 words still this month because I know the topic so well. *cough* If anything, it'll give me the strength/confidence to be able to shit out an actual 50,000 page novel at this rate.
I posted a couple more drabbles at fanfiction.net (This is the link to the first chapter) The new ones are 4 through 6. Actually, I may have posted #4 on here before (about Yaten and Luna). #5 and #6 go together and are about Ami.
Also have made a couple of updates at Only Pussies Throw Fireballs over the past couple of weeks, so feel free to check those out.
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I went cleaning crazy yesterday. I am a bit of a hoarder (not bad enough to be featured on a television show, but I do save an abnormal amount of shit that I think I'm going to need for no reason and about once a year, I embark on a huge throwing shit out binge. I've never actually gone through clothes however, in case I want to wear that one shirt sometime. This time, I pretty much said fuck it and got rid of a ton of shirts (well, donated them to thrift store) and then took almost all of my t-shirts off the hangers and folded them and put them in stacks on a closet shelf. So, I can now hang up my hoodies in the closet as opposed to alternating them between the chair in my room and then the bed when I want to sit in the chair.
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In addition to anime backlog (which actually isn't big; it's more "stuff I want to watch log". This is coupled with "shows I need to rewatch for Tremendous Thirty"), I want to really get through game backlog, but so many awesome games are coming out. :| I DID finish Uncharted 2 (may have mentioned that last entry). I'm about to tear open Muramasa for Wii and play a little bit. I can't tell you how much I want to check out Jurassic: The Hunted.
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If you made it this far: Next shows for the Tremendous Thirty should be: To Heart and Berserk. |
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|10:35 pm] |
jesus christ, I don't think I'm meant to do NaNoWriMo ever.
Seeya later everything I had already fucking typed! |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|11:34 pm] |
Today, I told my dad I wanted to quit work, move back in with the family, and start a band.
His reaction was (rightfully) not amused or impressed and said he wouldn't tell me no, but he wasn't exactly going to say yes to the idea either.
I told him I wasn't planning on it.
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Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm a horrible friend or if I find the people in my life to be negative influences or people. I want to lean towards the latter because it makes me look like less of a dick. The amount of people I talk to/hang out with (in person) has dramatically decreased since the beginning of this year.
I'm... no, I was, really upset about Logan's birthday party. I had been invited earlier in the month of October (his birthday is on Halloween), but this was before anything had really been planned. I didn't hear anymore about it since then and as a result, did not go/wasn't formally invited(?). I texted him a birthday greeting in the morning, thinking maybe he'd ask if I was coming over, but he never replied back. I really think I have moved on from him at this point. It took a long time.
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Winter is coming and I'm slightly disappointed in myself that I am still here. I guess, ultimately, I like that I can still do a lot of the things I like to do while living here on a much cheaper way of living. That's not to say I want to go, but looking for jobs is depressing as I'm not even sure what it is I want to do. I'm hoping with all this writing I've been working on over the past couple of months, it's going to be easier for me to sit down and put together some better samples or ideas that I can submit to sites and try to become a contributor of sorts.
Speaking of writing, NaNoWriMo is coming along painfully slow, but steady. The fact that I'm still doing it is almost a bit of a shock to me. I have the basic idea down and I'm not trying to incorporate a whole bunch of unnecessary shit into it, but that's how you set-up the plot or advance it or whatever. I've got abortions of story ideas on my computer and I think it has just been a "there's no way I'm going to write the great American novel" feeling when I start those. With this one, I just want to shit out 50,000 (or more or less) words and be like "Here's a fucking novel. OK, apparently I can do this, now I can start on something legit."
My Sailor Moon drabbles had a bit of traffic the other day, thanks to anyone who came out to check them out. :)
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I've been doing hardcore step aerobics or whatever in my room and this weekend was the biggest push I did. My foot now feels fucked up as a result and I feel like an idiot. :|
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When I think of the past few entries I've written, I'm kinda thinking they sound almost depressing or something, so... I'm going to work on not doing that. Or not feeling that way? I don't know if I'm necessarily depressed, just overwhelmed in thought. So...
My favorite anime is Planetes; my favorite movie is Blazing Saddles; blue is the best color; boys are undeniably cute; eventually, more people will come to realize how creatively awesome I am when the stuff I'm screwing around with is ever complete and I'm ready to let people in on
I carry a leather card case, so naturally, it doesn't contain a lot of items (rather, it's not able to.) One of the four slots contains my superstitious bullshit, containing my raffle coupon that was my winning ticket for getting a Hakua Ugetsu autographed artbook (actually, I tell people I keep it because it says KEEP THIS COUPON on it, so I'm just following the directive) and now three fortunes. Two of which say:
You have a flair for adding a fanciful dimension to any story.
You possess an excellent imagination.
The third one I picked up today:
You are going to pass a difficult test.
I know what the test is and I would like to pass it now.
Also, I don't like the actual cookie of the fortune cookie. Terrible taste. |
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[Nov. 1st, 2009|12:03 pm] |
Inspired by NailBat's drabbles, I've taken to writing a collection of drabbles using the band-translated names of songs from Tokyo Jihen which I am posting at fanfiction.net. So, if you kinda like Sailor Moon or whatever, check it out.
I purposely leave the characters ambiguous or enough of a hint that if you have knowledge of the show, you should know. However, I'll just tell you who people are supposed to be in these stories that are up:
1. Usagi and Seiya
2 & 3. Mimet (the greatest fucking villian in the history of that show)
4. Luna & Yaten
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Started NaNoWriMo last night which is not starting well? I guess its only noon, so I shouldn't feel bad for only have ~400 words. I really did zero planning for this, which I think may help, because last year I did a bit of planning the week before and then was sick of it or something. I don't know, I realized I had a lot more flaws in last year's stories that needed time to be worked out. This one is... well, I'll make it work. I didn't realize it until after I started writing, but you'll be able to make parallels to Millenium Actress, which I wasn't intending to do (although, really, you can relate any work to anything at this point in time). It actually came about from the Mimet drabbles I did.
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With all of this writing going on, I'm hoping it KEEPS me in a writing mood as I would like to continue to do it. Only Pussies Throw Fireballs is in somem part to thank as well, except its going to be hard to update as often this month. Maybe not. Shit, I don't even know.
I do know I want to play some games right now. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2009|09:54 pm] |
I had one of the few real talks with my dad today. I mean, I've talked with him about problems before, but not life talks often. I've had many minor blow-out's where I've been all "I need to quit work," but today at work was a bit of a breaking point. Of the select tasks I do at work, the one I've been doing on and off the past couple of weeks is the most tedious and mind-numbing that I do. I mean... it's hard to explain how much of a joke this task is and then compared to how much I value myself and my time and knowledge. So, I called with what started out as another "I need to quit work" call. I told him I just need one person to reinforce my want to quit and that's all it would take. (I need to note now that by 'quit,' I mean, 'put in my two weeks notice.') However, my dad was either not listening at points or couldn't concentrate because mom and sister wouldn't STFU in the background. So, I grew increasingly pissed and he could tell and said he'd call back.
He ended up calling back and I had to explain how frustrating it is when I value myself so much more. How I have no desire to even think about looking for another job when I already don't like this, etc. He didn't say "I think you should quit," but he didn't seem as out-right "STFU and go to work" as he usually did.
It also finally clicked with me that I think my OCD is actually a problem and that's where a lot of this work frustration is really coming from. While I would say I had OCD personality (which means it doesn't affect your life, more or less), I'm starting to think I have straight up OCD. I introduced the idea that I think I genuinely need to seek some sort of professional help for it. Normally, I would say that that's a bullshit idea, but I'm thinking I really might have to. Oddly enough, my dad started to agree with that and he thinks he might be a problem too, which is the first time I've heard him even acknowledge it. Now, for all I know, he could have just been saying this to be the voice that would convince me to do what it is I want to do, but with the constant reinforcement I need, he knew I wouldn't do it without someone else saying it.
So:
1) I'm looking into my insurance and seeing what I am able to do to get help with my OCD (that doesn't require prescription medication, because I am refusing that)
2) I may have decided that I need to quit this job and just fucking go.
This could be an interesting end of the year. |
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[Oct. 16th, 2009|10:32 am] |
Moving onto the next show at the blog (Only Pussies Throw Fireballs), I'm moving onto Super GALS! with a little, hopefully entertaining, intro to my exposure and fandom of the show... which I just realized I forgot a piece from. I'm going to update it.
I'm going to be covering this show a little differently (shorter). |
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[Oct. 5th, 2009|09:28 pm] |
I hinted to this at Facebook, but Erika and I are "reuniting" the band, so to speak, and putting out another Body & Mind EP. Not sure as to what we're going to cover; we've only just started planning. Some Persona songs for sure and I think she wants to do a song from Suzuka, St. Tail, and Haunted Junction. I think we're going to plan for 10 new songs.
I have run the idea of doing original stuff past Erika for a while; she's ready. Which means, I'm starting to put together original music for a really small release that I plan to actually push out there. I think we've got enough experience working together and within our limitations to make something work. I really want to do a electro-pop/house with vocals thing and she is totally cool with that. So... I'm working on that now. I'm pretty pumped because I've been wanting to do something new with music again and all I've really been doing is screwing around on guitar.
I've been blogging about Area 88 recently. Such an amazing show. I've written up the first 5 episodes very... story-like. There's a change in the rest though; I'd be lying if I didn't say it was because of some criticism I got from how I did some entries on the 1up blog :P But they made a good point. I've said before that Area 88 is in my top 10 shows; it's definitely staying there. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|05:40 pm] |
First: Inspired by the 'pick-up' posts at NeoGAF, here's a couple of things I picked up this weekend. I kinda don't mind doing this, because the amount of goods I've bought over the past few months have been minimal.
Picked up Bioshock for PS3 ($20~ ) and on my sister's insistence of going to TJ Maxx, found a Ted Baker watch that I absolutely loved.
It has that signature Baker paisley etched(?) into the strap and its a nice brown/blue color combo.
For those curious, yes, I have started looking at jobs in other cities for the past couple weeks. It's kinda hard as to where to look, but I've been hitting up craigslist a lot looking. :P I found out that that ulillillia guy wrote a book and self-published; you have no idea how much that has motivated me this weekend.
Oh! I saw the Arctic Monkeys last weekend; 4th best show I saw this year (and it was really good which should be telling of what an awesome concert year I've had--Ben Folds is still upcoming) |
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|03:25 am] |
Wow, I haven't posted this month. Playing lots of games, watching lots of anime (Ouran is one entry away from completion now), umm.. I went to LA if nobody knew? haha. I wrote a big entry about GLAY at the blog.
THANK YOU STEPH AND ODIE for letting me come hang out with you guys and for everything! I know I was coming during the week, so I appreciate anyone that was able to come out and see me. :) Yogurtland is my new obsession.
Lots of drama went on over the summer, I found out, while I took a sabbatical from seeing anyone. Now that everyone is around more because of school, I'm finding out what happened in small pieces not from any of the actual parties involved. As a number of people on here have been familiar with me talking about this, I thought it best to post it here/write about it somewhat. Basically, I made a friend earlier this summer who is friends with a bunch of us anyway, and he's been filling me in on what's been happening. As to what has been happening, there are a number of details I don't know, but let me prelude with this:
Reagan knows about the past between me and 17, and how I have asked him out and how he said now and how we are able to be civil about it and we're fine with it, etc (not that I wouldn't say 'yes' if 17 did want to go out). My connection with 17 has been... one I've never felt as strong about as I have with other people, even if we're not dating. I've told Reagan (and probably others here) that if anyone did anything to hurt 17 whether they broke up with him or whatever, I would be there for him in a second.
Where my mind is going with the pieces I've been picking up, my blood is practically boiling and I want to seriously fuck someone up.
Like I said, the details have been slowly coming out over the past couple weeks, but I really believe that someone I was acquaintances with for the past couple of years has found a way to abuse 17. I mean, sexually and mentally. Holding the "I'm going to tell your parents your gay" card over his head; possibly being EXTREMELY inappropriate because he couldn't get what he wanted (17, in general), maybe more. I'm livid about it.
17 has not told me a lot of this yet. He's told me that he has dropped out of school and quit working at Starbucks when me, him, "fake British guy" and new friend I made all went out to dinner. I've heard from someone else who is close to 17 that that was a result of the person who caused the abuse. That same person also had him and "fake British guy" disinvited from our birthday party. From what I can understand, 17 even told the school that "it's because of this person that I'm quitting school, because I don't feel safe here."
The new friend I made told me and Reagan, that 17 specifically said he wanted to tell both of us what has been going on. New friend seems to know and I get the impression that it's going to be very fucked up. I feel good knowing that 17 still cares about me as a friend enough to be one of the few that he will open up to, even if we haven't talked as much over the past few months. I know I'm going to just want to hug him when it's over, but I don't know how personal/weird the problems are going to be and if physical contact is going to freak him out.
I know 17, he'll open up on his own terms and I think he is getting close to it as he finally told the new friend about it. And he's been living with him for the past few weeks and just said some stuff this week. So, it's a matter of time really.
Needless to say, I'm growing increasingly furious at the person who did this. He's roommate's with one of my best friends here and when I find out 17's story, which I'm inclined to believe as the real one, because I've witnessed first-hand how fake the abuser is, I don't know what's going to happen. 17's not being completely silent about the issue, but I'm furious enough that I want to help.
There are other details I'm leaving out; it'll have to wait until I can make a follow-up. It's time for bed.
I have to mention Reagan's name because of my current like for him and because he's another part of the overall story. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2009|10:32 pm] |
Hey Everyone!
Blue Diamond Phillips is 2 Kool 4 Skool
Now hosting at SoundCloud, which you can stream from or download. No gimmicks, no pop-ups.
Tracklist:
Chemical Brothers - It Began In Afrika
ElectroSound - Supermassive Rainbow (Klaxons vs. Muse)
Scissor Sisters - Filthy Gorgeous
Daft Punk - Face To Face (Demon Remix)
Chemical Brothers - It Doesn't Matter
Justice - Waters of Nazareth
Justice vs. Simian - We Are Your Friends (Disco Villains Remix)
capsule - MUSiXXX
Soulwax - NY Lipps
C.H.A.O.S Productions - M.I.A. in Funkytown |
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[Aug. 26th, 2009|05:35 pm] |
Ugh, today like... all my senses are just in fucking overdrive and I'm extremely ornery and finally coming down from it. It's a combination of so much in one day like: BARELY getting some of the stuff I wanted to get done at work this morning actually done because I'm practically a project manager at this point and helping out with too many things; Adobe 9 driving me FUCKING INSANE; so many dumb drivers today (was it fun yelling FUCK YOU to the head of HR while driving? absolutely); actually having to change my drivers license picture that I reallyreallyreally liked :( ; uhhh... and generally being in a rush all day. And almost getting hit by a car in my car and by a car when I was walking because fuckers don't know how to use their signals.
It's also hot.
And my allergies.
So I'm home and just relaxing as much as humanly possible right now.
Watching a lot of anime recently. I told Reagan I was watching anime the other night or whatever and I said I'd invite him over to watch, but he laughed, but he actually wanted to come over. I think it is more of a 'to-spend-time-with-me' thing and I am fine with that. :) I don't know if I mentioned earlier that he broke up with his boyfriend and there's someone he likes and he's alluded to it in facebook notes and stuff and hopes to do something about it when he comes back to Fargo, but he's never told me anything about it. So...
Other than that. COMING TO LA SOON!!! SO EXCITED TO SEE EVERYONE! :) Excited for GLAY! Excited for Arctic Monkeys in Minneapolis! And Ben Folds in October here! Job search is going slow, because I'm being kinda picky (which I think is fine) since... I have a job right now.
ALSO! I've been updating the blog, like, daily, so please read it: Only Pussies Throw Fireballs. I've been blogging about Ouran High School Host Club since last Monday if that interests anyone. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2009|12:20 am] |
I have one real weekend left where I can sit around indoors and not worry about anyone wanting to do anything because people I want to start hanging out with will be coming back to Fargo for school starting Sunday (which is a day I don't do anything on as it is anyway, because I like to have at least one day where I can stay home and do nothing or go out and pick up some stuff if I want to).
With that said, here are my ideas:
Friday: Go to work, come home and get some blogging stuff ready for next week and work on some music; maybe go out
Saturday: Get blitzed during the day and write the next American novel
Sunday: recover and pray it is Sunday
I think this might be the weekend I make my whiskey and M&M breakfast-in-bed a reality. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2009|10:58 pm] |
I'm onto show #4 at Only Pussies Throw Fireballs, which is Ouran High School Host Club. The first episode synopsis is... long. ^^; But then I'll be doubling some up, so it'll work out :P I've been looking at the screencaps I took and man, this show is beautiful looking.
I have been CRUISIN through Hana Yori Dango; going to finish tonight. I watched about 30 episodes since Saturday. Show is all kinds of awesome and I'm tempted to go buy the one other used set I saw at the used DVD store. (Picked up one set for an AODer)
EDIT: I did finish it and it WAS awesome. :O
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Had my 1-on-1 at work today which was OK; they're just kinda interviewing everyone about what they like and what they career aspirations are; I think they're trying to feel out who they can move into the leader role when the time comes. I'm kinda hoping I'm gone by then, but maybe I'll at least look in their eyes until :P
I really haven't done much; been watching anime more than I ever have which is... kinda weird. Been trying to keep up with the writing. Trying to get some new ideas out there too. Started messing around with music production stuff again. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|12:50 am] |
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Ahh, just another late-night freak out. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2009|01:30 am] |
Where do I start!? I feel like I should catch up since the last post (not the one today or yesterday(?)), but I feel like nothing has also really happened. Work has been brutal and I know I'm becoming complacent in a sense, but it could also be that I've been just worn out after work for the past month. I was reading this thread about confidence over at the GAF, because what the OP said resonated with me in some of the specifics, and one of the things someone said was they just moved and it forced them to have to make decisions (one of the things the guy talked about was indecision and the amount of mental frustration in just making a choice goes) and... I don't know, I liked it. I've got enough money sitting around and I'm not really that picky with a job, that I feel like I should just quit, move somewhere, then start working or doing something. I know its irresponsible, but... eh? (I feel like I talk about this all the time though, even if I don't). So, there's that.
(Honestly, I'd like to take a die, assign a locale to each number, roll the die, move to the place that is face-up)
Went on a coffee date with a guy and it was weird; whatever. Another guy started talking with me, but classic me being a dick stopped talking to him because I wasn't interested. Reagan is coming back; we've been talking a bit. He's alluded to really liking someone (not telling me directly) and is going to do something about it when he comes back; we'll see if it's me (or if I make a play first).
Sioux Falls was fun; nice to see Greg and Chris since I haven't seen them in a year. WIsh I could've talked with Greg more, but ... :| Had a fun time at the dance and danced with a couple of high school boys which I didn't realize until after ^^; The Butterfly House was creepy and a bit of a test for me, since I do not like bugs or insects or almost anything that isn't human. I thought it was going to be some dead butterflies on display and some other species in an encased environment flying around; no. It was a greenhouse with tons of butterflies flying around. The second we walked in, I wanted to leave almost immediately. Erika loved it at first and was getting more and more creeped out as we were there and lasted about 10 minutes (which was a loop around the thing; probably a quick loop). Otherwise, a lot of going out to eat. Found a Japanese restaurant there that was pretty good; I'm craving eating in LA though. Speaking of which:
Trip to LA is coming! GLAY!!!!! :) Also I'm coming in on my birthday~ I might have to do my bday tradition of watching the AbFab episode "Birthday" before flying out.
I've really wanted to get into photography recently. Or just artsy shit, I don't know. It's expensive, but... well, I need to do research. :P
I'm not expecting Only Pussies Throw Fireballs to be some runaway anime blog hit, but I kinda want more people to see it. :P Just need to figure out how to effectively plug it places or whatever. Maybe I need to post about things that aren't my thirty favorite shows. I feel like I've become a better narrative writer though through it. Anyway, I'd like to do daily updates, but... I won't promise it. :| I'd like to just post an entry the second it's done, but its nice to have a couple made up in advance :P |
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